16.5 weeks in to the journey

Hi there, well I am 16.5 weeks into my journey, and 13.5 weeks after surgery. I have lost a total of 90lbs since the start of this journey and 70lbs of that since the surgery in December. I have more energy than I have every had, I can only fit into one pair of pants without them falling off. My shoes don't even fit anymore i walk right out of them. I weigh less now then I did 10 years ago...I am totally amazed at how much life is changing for me. I am so excited about what the future has to bring.

Now I am not going to sit here and say that I am not having issues. I do, I still crave food that is bad for me, but thankfully everytime i try and eat something that i really shouldn't i throw up, so i guess it is my body's way of making sure I succeed at this.

Now another thing that I am having trouble with is that everyone that I talk to or tell about the surgery tells me about someone they know or have heard of that had the surgery and failed after the initial weight loss and that scares me, cause i am going through hell right now to lose the weight and am so afraid that it will come back. I workout at the gym, I am still eating the high protein low carb diet, I don't drink pop and very rarely have juice. I try and make sure that i drink enough water everyday but it is so hard to do. There are most days that I know i am dehydrated yet can't seem to get myself to drink. I am taking my vitamins which is a chore as well cause i have never been good at taking meds or vitamins, i am good for a few days and then suck for a few days...which i know is also leading to dehydration and most likely my anemia acting up pretty bad. But all i can do is try and stay on my focused path and try and be happy.

Its funny I sit here and say I have lost 90lbs but yet when I look in the mirror I really don't see any physical change...I am not sure why but others say they can see the change...yet I can't, I really hope that changes soon. I can see a change in my clothes of course but other than that i really don't see the difference.

Well not much else I can say right now as it is 7:46am and I haven't been to sleep yet tonight. looks like it might be a long day...